Fear of Failing

I’ve spent a great deal of my life focused on learning. I love learning new things, I love to read books, and discover interesting details about life. I taught myself how to program at 12, taught myself how to design, and how to implement development interventions. I love to learn.

But all of these things I’ve learned have been based on self-study and practice. See, I’ve failed and dropped out of six universities. It’s not something I tell a lot of people, it’s not something I’m proud of. But despite my lack of success in school, God has brought me back to college. Today, Breanne and I visited the Bible College of Wales, which I start next week. We took a walk around the campus to get a feel of what is next.

And it hit me. I’m headed back to a place that I have failed six times before. A place where I have not experienced success. A place that God clearly wants to redeem for me, as I move forward on the path of becoming a pastor.

I’m still overwhelmed. I still worry that I will fail. But I trust that God’s plan is greater than my own. That my family and I are here for a reason, and that this season will be great.

Please pray for me over the next few days as I start this new chapter of my life.